why is it whenever I count my chickens before they hatch they always end up being stillborn? =/

i went to the APSA meeting and stayed longer than i had expected. my punishment. i got another parking ticket! freakin regents! i graduate yet they still take more of my money. =/... speaking of money i just got in my new checks in the mail. first time i've actually spent money on designer checks... i'm usually too cheap and just get the standard checks that my bank gives me for free. i received word from davis that i won't be getting an interview. =( somewhat disappointed, but not really concerned. like i said before it's now a matter of fate. if i get in, then i was really meant to become a doctor. if not, then it's time i look inside myself and see what other plans are in store for me. on the bright side of things if i don't get into any post bacc program it means i wasn't meant to be alone for the next 8 years of life. any takers? i'm cute, smart, funny, and know how to cook!

my dad just bought my car some new tires! woo hoo. i told him i'd repay him back sometime down the line with a new set of tires along with a new benz. lets hope i can make good on my promise. i knew i shouldn't have taken that nap today... it's going to be so hard to go to sleep tonight...

i called in sick again at work today. my boss actually called me back to see how i was doing which really caught me off guard.... good thing i still had my raspy morning voice. i always feel guilty calling in sick which is why i like it better when all i have to do is leave a voicemail for my boss. the first of the month is always the busiest since we're shipping out all last month's samples. since i'm the only one who's computer literate in the lab they need me to ship out the samples. hence the reason i feel somewhat guilty for not being there, but i think i'm justified in needing my rest. anywho, my boss was asking if i had been to the doctor since she would need a note from her if was going to be out for more than 3 days. but i should be back to normal by tomorrow if i get a good night's rest. i may even go to work for a full 8 hours! i really should take this job more seiously. i've always had the mentality that since i'm a student i'm given special provisions in the work place. ie. time off for midterms and finals, calling in sick if i need to study, coming in late if i need to talk to a professor, etc, etc, etc. as you can see i don't really take my work all too seriously at the research clinic.

quiz-o-rama
so apparently i am every bit as angelic as i thought... hahaha...

while reading about the different levels of hell i found out the deepest level of hell, level 9, is actually cold and icy and not hot with fire... so i guess the saying "when hell freezes over" doesn't apply since it's already frozen...

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	High
Level 2 (Lustful)	Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

now this is funny...


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it's the second night i find myself in a self-prescribed drug stupor. i'm really glad that i don't have school anymore, otherwise i would not be a good place right now. the APSA business machine is chugging along fine without my presence at tonight's board meeting. hopefully a full night's rest is all need to be 100% percent again.

my plans for the summer should start to materialize within the next two weeks. this week i should be hearing back from UCDavis as to a possible interview. i'm a bit nervous. although i think i'm now at a place in my life where i'm willing to pick up the pieces if i don't make it into any of the programs i applied to and start fresh. deep down though i know i made the right decision. i'm leaving the rest up to fate to decide whether or not it's going to happen. my trip to new york has been put on hold until i can figure out my career situation. until then i'll just be waiting for phil to get his ass back on the west coast.

PCC is just around the corner. the show is this weekend. not being able to practice on stage i think has left many of the performers out of sync with the show. we still have yet to see any of the sets or even do a full run through with tech and sound. i honestly think the caliber show we're putting on is going to be far and beyond what people are expecting, but i'm just scared it won't come together in the end. i still don't think i play a convincing medic... haha

when the doctor is sick, who the heck takes care of him?

so i think i have the flu. the reason i dismissed having the flu in the first place was because i gotten my flu shot at the beginning of the flu season. but i guess all the symptoms are there. maybe i have a different mutation of this year's flu. i couldn't go back to bed after i called in sick to work so i made myself some homemade chicken noodle soup. none of the cambells crap in a can for me. i can't remember if the old saying is "starve a cold and feed a fever" or the other way around. doesn't matter i've basically been stuffing my face and drinking lots and lots of juice and water.

i got a call from the ucsf admissions people and they still hadn't recieved my transcripts so i had to go fax them a copy to tide them over until my official ones come in. i went down to the "business center" of our apartment, but the stupid machine wasn't even working. walked down to the postal annex since i was planning to buy some juice and tissue at vons next door. i paid nearly 6 bucks for that freakin fax! what the hell? i could have drove home to fax my transcripts and with the long distance plus gas it still would have been cheaper.

bah... so my SARS seems to have mutated into allergies. running nose, itchy and watery eyes... don't really have a sore throat anymore, but my nose is raw from all the blowing and wiping.

blogging from the confines of my bed. my head hurts, my muscles aches, and i'm probably dehydrated. after going downtown to watch a play me and mayrin went to sav-on to buy some alleve and powerade. the very taste of powerade/gatorade lets me know i'm sick. in fact, just drinking it conjures up images of me with the stomach flu and that nasty feeling right before you throw up. but i drink it nevertheless because i'm prolly really dehydrated. one of the sorrows of living on your own is having to take care of yourself when you sick. =( anywho, i just popped 2 alleve and some cough medicine so hopefully i'll be able to sleep tonight.

bah.. it's official i'm sick and a full day of rehearsals isn't going to help me feel better. body aches and a sore throat. checked the medicine cabinet and i'm all out of tylenol. =(

pcc rehearsals again tonight. so sad. for my dance we never have the full set of people. always missing people here and there. bah. i ended up jetting after on of the coordinators watched us do a run through and said we were good. i didn't know were doing a whole dance run through later now. ehhh... i know my dance, just don't know about the others.

i had to drop off my car at home since my dad is going to get the tires changed on saturday. in exchange i'm driving my mom's camry. i was hoping i'd get to drive my dad's benz, but obviously that didn't happen. i'm dead tired so i'll update the rest of my day after i get some sleep. damn, looks like i'll only be getting one full REM cycle tonight.

so i'm sick. i woke this morning with a scratchy throat and a really hoarse voice... i called in sick to work today. i feel like staying in bed, but i know if i do that i'm just going to end up feeling even more shit. i think the sorry state of my room has something to do with the fact i feel like shit. i have a pile of laundry and shirts that need to be folded and ironed. i also have to come up with a workshop activity for APSA retreat by tonight. bah... going to wash up and try to clean up my room...

just finished washing my sheets... *sniffs*... why is it the smell of clean laundry just puts people at ease? my bed feels so nice right now... it's like i just got my cloud washed or something... haha...

today after work i decided to swim some laps since the weather has finally gotten to the point where i won't freeze when i get out of the pool. i ended up swimming for about a half hour and afterwards i was just mess. my heart rate was incredibly fast and my head was spinning. i didn't know what was wrong. my breathing was erratic too. i thought i was going to barf on my way back the apartment. i ended up passing out on my bed until it was time for the grad banquet meeting. now my sheets kinda smell like chlorine since i didn't shower right after the pool. =/... not good. i have this thing where i can't lie in my bed if i'm wearing my street clothes, only bedtime clothes are allowed to touch my bed. so before i passed out i just put on my bedtime shorts and passed out. i didn't know what was wrong with me though. i couldn't slow down my breathing and i think i feel asleep with my heart rate still racing. goes to show the sorry state of my health.

i checked my checking account.. i literally have no money. i put in 500 to cover my rent and the new balance in my account was 500. hahaha... i hate not having money. i'm so bad with it. it's not like i haven't been watching what i spend it's just that i have stupid debts i need to pay. if anyone wants to be my sugar momma or daddy and pay off my debts i'm sure we could work out something... ;P

i personally find this amazing... in the news today a research scientist accidently discovered a mouse that has a genetic resistance to cancer. they breed the mouse and find that it's most likely a dominant genetic trait. the implications of such a find are just awe-inspiring... yes, i'm a big science nerd.

instead of sleeping for most of my day off i had a breakfast date with my friend rachel. then headed to campus to run some errands for grad banquet, which finally looks like it's taking shape. =) went back home to help my little bro rent a tux for his prom. since i have better fashion sense than him i picked it out for him. he's going to look quite sharp at his prom i must say. i ended paying for the whole rental as my birthday gift to him. i know if my parents had gone with him they would have cheaped out on everything and just made my little bro anger and sad. also found out that my little bro is going to be a college man =) so proud... he'll be going to cal state san marcos. hopefully gain some independence and mature a bit...

after what can only be described as an agonizing night i found myself strangely at peace in the morning. the sun was shining and it was finally starting to feel like spring has finally arrived. i guess you could say today was just full of blessings. in addition to the wonderful spring time weather i got my UCLA application sent out and got my transcripts mailed to my remaining schools. i actually got to work 15 minutes early which is amazing since i'm habitually late. my boss even asked me if i wanted to take tuesday and thursday off since the clinic has been so slow lately. on top of that i was able to leave work an hour early to drop off some samples at the hospital. in what can only be described an a totally random occurance i found a perfectly good cucumber on the ground on the mail to my mailbox. normally i wouldn't think about picking up and taking home produce i find on the ground, but in this case i made the exception since it was one of those expensive seedless cucumbers that's shrink wrapped. to finish off the great day my book from barnes and noble came in. i'm going to start reading for fun again. something i haven't done in a long time.

starting to hit me that my time in this apartment is limited. i've talked to jas almost on a daily basis about what my plans are and it's really nice to know that she doesn't want me to leave. if given the option to stay i would consider it, but i think my time here is done. i've reached that point where i can't grow anymore. i feel like peter pan and that it's my time to leave never never land. i've pretty much got my sights on irvine and the bay as possible places i could see myself going to school for the next year. a new crowd and a fresh slate i think would do me some good.

tomorrow i have the day off so i'm going to take advantage of it. breakfast date in the morning, finish up the last of the post bacc bizness, talk to saundra the director of the ucsd program, sell some grad banquet tickets, and then take my little bro out to go tuxedo shopping.

i was brushing my teeth and reading the tube of toothpaste when i was suddenly reminded of my grandfather... i was transported back to all the times he would ask me to drive him to the store so he could buy some colgate. at times i would be a little brat and say i was busy or that i would do it later. he was always so patient and understanding. i remember too how he would always kiiss me on the forehead before he asked me if we could go to the store. he would always sing songs to me too. i remember how paper thin the skin on his hands felt when he rubbed the back of my neck... that was back in the day when i was driving around my dad's old celica, which i hated... he would tell me that if he had a million dollars he would buy me whatever car i wanted. afterwards he would ask if i wanted a hamburger. he loved hamburgers. times like this i really wish he was buried here. at least then i would have a place to go to talk to him. not like this. typing away my thoughts. internalizing my grief. why the fuck was i such a fucking brat? i hate myself right now... please forgive me.

yes! just finished all my post bacc applications. all i need to do is send out my transcripts and i'll be done. only problem is i don't remember which schools i've already sent out my transcripts to. damn it. this is why you should keep your receipts... bah, so dumb... how sad is that? i can't keep track of the work i've done and yet i want to be a doctor... haha. seriously trust me. i'm smart. =P

bleh... i hate doing these personal statements for applications. it's so much easier to be eloquent in person than it is to spout wisdom via type... maybe it's just because i know what i say will have an affect on my future... here in blogspace i can type forever it seems. i'm getting that same feeling of apathy and boredom that only comes around midterms and finals week... funny thing is my friends are the ones who are in midterms not me. i'm done. now for a little something innane...

50 things about reggie...

1) I was born in Olongapo City, Philippines. My dad didn't get to see me until i was about a couple of months old since he was in the United States at the time.
2) I talk to myself while driving alone in the car.
3) I fold my toilet paper now... i used to scrunch it
4) back in high school i was addicted to IRC (internet relay chat)
5) my current on-line addiction is reading blogs
6) i have an extreme fear of failure and rejection.
7) related to #6, hence the reason i rarely play sports
8) i have never been in a longterm relationship
9) i used to want to be a raver
10) i also used to want to supe up my car to be a little asian racer guy
11) i didn't know what a B.S. stood for until the end of my 2nd year of college
12) i don't like being the center of attention, but i crave personal one-on-one attention
13) i always do the sign of the cross and touch the rosary in my car before i drive
14) i go to church every sunday, but don't really agree with the catholic church
15) it takes me forever to finish doing my laundry
16) when i'm sad i cry and when i'm mad i cry
17) i love jack in the box tacos even though i know they're crap
18) i've eaten mac and cheese less than 10 times in my lifetime
19) given the choice of jeans and boxers i'd probably buy the boxers
20) I've never had to spend the night in the hospital or go to the ER.
21) Ever since the drought that happened in southern cali back in the 80s i've always taken really short showers
22) i eat really fast. by the time i'm done with dinner my parents are just sitting down to the table
23) when i'm at home i only eat about 6 tablespoons of rice with my meal while the rest of my family always fills their plates
24) when i was young i thought eating too much could kill you. i overfed my goldfish
25) my mother is half chinese but doesn't know how to use chopsticks
26) i don't like getting my skin tanned
27) i used to want to a ninja. i used to practice my stealth moves on the roof of our house
28) i pluck the hairs inbetween my two eyebrows
29) i like hiphop but i don't like clubbing
30) i used to play the piccolo in high school
31) i never feared being alone until i realized that i was the only one amongst my friends w/o a significant other
32) i believe in finding one's soul mate
33) it takes me 30 minutes to fall asleep even when i'm dead tired
34) even if it's 80 degrees i still need to have my down comforter on top of me before i fall asleep
35) i can lucid dream
36) i think chinky eyes are damn sexy
37) my parents forced me to practice my handwriting and typing when i was little
38) i only talk in my sleep when i'm feeling anxious
39) i'm selfish when it comes to sharing stuff with my little bro, but i don't think twice when it comes to friends
40) my most "daring" piece of clothing is a leather cuff i bought from urban outfitters
41) if i'm home in the afternoon i like to watch Arthur and Zoom
42) i've traveled up the whole west coast into canada in a single trip
43) i can only play video games if it's with someone else otherwise i get bored easily
44) out of all the people i've randomly met on-line i have yet to meet one in person
45) i think kissing is an even more intimate exchange between two people than having sex is
46) i stretch every morning in bed after i wake up
47) i try to wash my car every week
48) i sometimes grind my teeth while i sleep
49) my parents once thought a midget at school was beating me up to do his homework
50) if i see something wrong i rarely point it out... ie. food in your teeth or your fly is down...

wow, that was a lot harder than i had thought... kinda fun though... a lot better than working on my applications =)

phew... found my camera... yeah i had it with me during rehearsal and yes i left it there... feeling sheepish now... jumped to all these weird conclusions...

day not going so well... can't seem to find my digital camera... i swear i brought it to rehearsal with me last night... it was in my backpack... i really hope i find it otherwise i'm assuming some bastard took it out of my backpack during practice... =/ so yeah, i ransacked my apartment and room trying to find it. no where... this isn't a good feeling...

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