First Week

it's the first day of the first week of school and i'm still up studying... bleh... sucks, huh? and i'm still far from finishing this reading i said i'd finish... i guess it would be partially my fault since i didn't get all my books today, but still i have tons of reading to finish...

this morning me and roomies were having breakfast today and i came to the realization that i'm slowly turning into my parents... no longer do i settle for microwave burritos or instance TV dinners i need to eat real food.. meaning food that is actually prepared and cooked by hand... not to say i don't enjoy my fair share of McDonalds, but overall if given the choice i'd prefer to take the time it takes to prepare a good meal than to zap something in the microwave... yeah, just the other day i was shopping in 99 ranch and i picked out vegetables, meat, and lots of different things my mommy usually buys to make her home cooking... i felt so adult! =)... well, i better finish off this study break and get back to reading about bacteria...

mahal kita~

translation - "love you"... on the way back to home from disneyland today me and mayrin were just taking about how we talk to our parents and she happened to hear me being short on the phone with my mom... afterwards we talked a bit about my relationship with my parents and she told me in the end you never know if the last time you talk to your parents will the last time and so whenever she talks to her parents even if they were arguing she tells them that she loves them... so very true... the terrorist attacks last tuesday prove that you never know when the unexpected will strike.. in that respect i think i'll be telling more people that i love them... and you should do the same, starting with your parents... go call them up and tell them you love them even if you have to call for a stupid reason just to say it.... i for instance called my mommy to ask for money and then told her i loved her... you can pick your own way... =)

Back to School

yes, some of you people didn't believe it was possible, but school is starting up again for me... technically the school year has already begun starting this week, week 0 out of our 10 week academic quarter... wow, if i get everything done correctly this should be my last year and then it's off into the real world... pretty frightening stuff... times like this i wish was 5 years old again but with the mental capacity to truly enjoy it... oh yeah, check out and see how much you're worth at in the apartment we're seeing how much everyone is worth... presently the rankings go phil, steph a., me, mayrin, and david... we all range from ~$2,200,000 to ~$1,600,000.... well, time to get some rest before my big first day of school =)

Now I know...

why computer programmers in general are so fat... i spent the majority of my day inside the apartment today working on APSA flyers, newsletter and updating my PDA and while i was doing that I was eating, constantly... if i wasn't having a carne asada taco then it was guacamole + chips or fried rice and bbq pork... but on the good side I've been drinking plenty of water so i'll be a hydrated fatty fat...

Back in the Groove

after going through a pretty down week my life has returned to some normalcy, despite what's going on on the east coast. having finally talked to my closest friends I was able to get a better understanding of myself and what i really wanted.... in the end, i'm much more happier and more content with who i am and i shouldn't be mad or upset at what i feel are shortcomings because frankly to others they're just trivial little things... and just cuz i never say it enough "i love you guys"...

tonight theTriple K Mah Jong group began it's second week pre-season game which started off slow and ended quite early by our standards but, it's still only pre-season and we have all year to play! unfortunately one of our own is MIA in japan and we've been combing to find a suitable replacement... which reminds me i need to get a set for myself... damn those american mah jong sets... if i could only find one without the numbers written in the corner. (sorry agnes...)

despite returning to normal, happy life my family at home goes through more drama with my younger brother as he struggles to get through all his high school drama shit... it's seriously funny how different me and my younger brother are... after seeing what my brother is capable of doing i know we are definately as opposite as two sides of a coin... a couple of nights ago my bro decided to sneak out of the house and go for a joy ride... not only did he not have car insurance, but he decided to take out my mom's car at 2 in the morning despite the fact there is a curfew for minors after 10 pm... and all he had to say for himself was that he just wanted to get a hamburger and drive around by himself... needless to say my mom doesn't believe a word he said... and i honestly don't know what to do with him... i just hope that this is the worst of his high school drama shit... cuz i'd hate to see what else he could do... aiyo~...

no good

yesterday i didn't get to bed till 7am... tonight looks like it may be the same time.. i thought that maybe being by myself would help me, but the tension is still there and i think i've just made myself sick... my appetite has gone and i've only eaten once today... what bugs me the most is i can't let go of this feeling i have in my gut despite how hard i try... i can't even let it go for a second long enough to let myself find peace to sleep... the tension builds and pretty soon it will need to be released one way or another... i don't know what how my emotions will effect my relationships with others... in fact today i blew off going to dim sum with rosie which i feel extremely guilty for and i shut everyone out of my life for a day by turning off my cell phone and staying in my room... in fact, i think some friends wanted me to go to LA with them but i just never returned their call... i really i could get over this and get back to normal... to me this is big, but to others it my seem trivial and that's why i think i refrain from sharing it... i give much love to my roomie steph who has listened to me and shared her feelings on the subject... i really can't describe the how much i appreciate the support you've given me... *sigh* usually around this time i would be playing around and enjoying summer, but instead i sit here wondering why the fuck i feel the way i do...

It's 3 o'clock...

in the morning and i'm still wide and awake... the apartment is missing jasmine and david, but at the same time has gotten mayrin and phil (the "other" roomies)... i just got back from having a great talk with roomie steph and it's just gotten the wheels in my head thinking... i've started to analyze myself and honestly i don't like what i see... i really don't know how to get my thought processes adequately protrayed on this forum... it's so frustrating to have these thoughts in my head and no way of letting them out... and perhaps it's always been that way... i've always been a person to keep thoughts to myself and not let the world in... when asked simple questions like what's your favorite movie or what would you like do? i freeze... i think about these answers which should come easily to me... you'd think this type of response would come from talking to a stranger, but they occur when talking to some of the closest people in my life... it scares me to think that these people whom i love and care about I can never really express to them what i'm feeling or even share my deepest and most intimate thoughts... honestly, with my best friends i've never really discussed issues of relationships, their personal lives, or the small details of one's life you share with someone you trust... i wonder soemtimes if its because i'm not someone who they can trust or is it because i'm someone who just can't share those things.... my hands are shaking as i type this and really hurts knowing that this strong silent type i've become to be has isolated me from people i love... on the outside i have friends and family surrounding me and yes i interact with them on a daily basis... they are the faces i look forward to seeing everyday and yet through all the good times i've had with these people i can never really say with absolute certainty that they know me inside and out and vesa versa... that perhaps the reason why at this present moment i can't find solace in anyone... i doubt anyone close to me has ever really seen me lose my composture or even told the nitty gritty of the girls i've had crushes on... it's tragic almost, to have a best friend who has never known the that type of information which is so common amongst others... and yes i know i'm rambling on and on.. and probably by the time i wake up tomorrow I'll feel happy again but honesty i really wish i could get over this... i know eventually someone will read this and find pity or whatever and see to it they talk to me and see "what's up..." but i can't say that this openess i long for will come to them so easily...

i'm reminded of finals week last quarter and I was studying by myself in my honey's bedroom while the kids played in the other room... i guess steph could tell i was upset and she asked me what was wrong and like always i just told her nothing... she again before she left and she head the anil on the head by calling me out and saying that i was the the type of person to hold in their feelings... at that moment i just wanted to open up to her and tell her everything i was feeling... but that voice inside held my voice tight and i simply nodded and went back to studying... when she left i was so angry at myself for not saying a word... angry at the times when otehrs have offered their ear and i simply gave it back to them... the stress of it nearly drove me to insanity until 5 muinutes later i did the only thing i could think of... it wasn't to go over to the next room and talk to my friends, it was to just sit and cry... keep my feelings inside and not let the world see my suffering... i just sat there and cried... the tears flowed like words i wished i had said... it's kinda funny too the way i cry... it's not really a weepy kind of cry or even loud for that matter... i just sat there and let the tears flow... very much like my personality, quiet at times... when i was done i walked to the bathroom washed my face and made sure to hide the signs of my pain... i even made sure my eyes weren't red and if anyone asked i would just say i was tired... it's so stupid... i guess being brought up as asian i was taught to never give anyone the burden of your problems, especially if you're a boy... from a young age i learned never to complain or say anything that would tend to upset others... as a result i'm a quiet, passive, and clam up when people want to talk.. granted you've all seen the opposite... the playful, loud, and talkative reggie... taking a hard look at myself i see that it's all merely a facade it seems... they say that comedians lead tragic lives and to some extent i feel as if they are right... i've begun to analyze my relationships with people and i see that hardly anyone i know has really sat with me and had a good long talk... not just about the current events but with everything and anything in their lives and in mine... to a greater extent i know much more about my friends than they know about me... and i think that statement says it all... what all this typing ends up to be... the fact that i as a person cannot communicate my feelings to other and to compensate i'm merely a sponge, i take it all in... i'm not saying i don't love to hear what my friends tell me because to know that people come to me and like the fact i can listen to them makes me happy... *sigh* it all makes so much more sense now.. the way my personality is at least... and the fact i don't have anyone to be with... and i really don't understand why... it fucking pisses me off that i can't have a friendship in which i feel perfectly at ease... not to say that i don't have friendships where i don't feel comfortable because i do,. but in the back of my head i know that there is this invisible barrier between us... this bridge we have yet to cross... i can see this is where i get my extreme jealously from... the fact that i feel so little makes me hold on to what i have even tighter... and anything that disturbs that i see as a threat to me... with my friends i'm like a bulldog, extremely protective of them... i'd give up my right arm to be with these people... argh, shit... i don't even know where i fucking going with this... let's just end it now by saying it's going to take a lot of time and strength for me to overcome this fear i have of sharing.. sharing my thoughts, secrets, friends, the intimate details which make up life....

it's 4 o'clock now and i just can't seem to release this stress... shoot me now someone... i have these wonderful friends in my life but in all honestly i feel as if i nothing more than an aquaintance to them.... i can't even talk to my parents... all they know of their son is that he's the pride of their family because he's the one going to med!, goddamnit... it's so stupid of me, to put my thoughts up this way, for the world to see... it would be much simpler to just walk into the next room and talk to them, but i can't i can't drive myself to do it... i think this is why sometimes i wait for people to make the first move versus myself... i can't get the inertia to do it... it's the numbing fear of getting rejected... i fear having to say meekly "it's okay, it's cool... i'm fine..." but knowing i should persue if it's wait i truely want...

the more i stay awake the more this problem persists... i can't shake it off... the picture is becoming clearer and i don't know how to react... i know what i want to say but can't say it... i can't even type it for fear of saying "too much"... it makes me mad that this stupid shit has ruined my composture... i'm actually shaking now... what's wrong with me? i'm I as emotionally unstable as i think i am? i think i'm going to take a drive...

i just got back from my drive... it's 5 am now... it did nothing.... i turned up the heat because i was shivering but it only made me sweat... it was almost like a 5 year old who runs away from home only to hide in the coat closet and come back 5 mins later... i have seriously never felt more depressed before in my life... and i know exactly why... this fucking sucks...

Hot Video

for the most part my role in the apartment has been the slacker/infant while the adults of the apartment go to school and work... however, i do my part in the daily chores as well as cook the majority of the meals which should constitute being somewhat "adult-like" activity... today i was being much more productive as my buddy Ted can attest to.. i've been editting my summer videos and it's pretty tough... i worked on it the majority of the day and produced the first part of many up coming videos... but let's just say ~3 minutes of video took about the whole day to complete and ate up more than a CD-R's worth of memory since there was so much excess video that wasn't used... additionally my system became so unstable that everytime i tried to capture some video my computer would just reset itself... bleh... in the end though I'm very pleased with what i did and hope that what few minutes of footage i've made makes the people who watch it happy... now if i can only get my printer to work...

Dim Sum

the apartment is strangely quiet tonight... no other roomies and no Fun Crew Family... it's relaxing and although i would never want to have this much privacy all the time it's nice to have the place all to myself. albert my little bro from LA came down to visit and have lunch with me. his family treated me to dim sum at Jasmine and it was great. it's really interesting to see what type of things other people order while at dim sum. for instance, eating with the family I know exactly what types of dishes they like and of course it's always topped off with dan tao (egg tarts)... while working in LA we ate in Chinatown a couple of times and the sort of dishes we got varied a bit due to the fact our A factor* was low... of course we had the regular dishes like su mai and bbq pork but in addition more vegetable dishes and less of the more "exotic" foods like rice in lotus leaf and chicken feet... today while at dim sum the fare was again different... we ordered tripe which i haven't eaten in about a year and this time for dessert instead of dan tao we had silken tofu and mochi... anywho, just something i noticed to today while eating...

*while dining in LA me and a couple of friends came upon the secret factor in all asian restaraunts which determines the level of service you receive... we're still working on the full blown theory of the Asian Factor... it theory it works like this... the more asians you have in your group the better the service you'll receive in an asian restaraunt... you don't necessarialy need to be of that asian heritage to get good service... for all they know you could just be american born and never learned how to speak korean, japanese, chinese, tagalog, etc... the factor can also be affected positively if you can speak that particular language, conversely you can lower your A Factor by asking for a fork or doing other cultural no-no's... how to figure out your A Factor? just divide the total number in your dining party by the number of asians in your group... the closer your number is to 1 the better your chances are of getting great service... but there are always exceptions to the A Factor like if you go to a shitty place with shitty service your A Factor maybe unable to compensate for it although decreasing it may make your meal worse.. (ie. Hodori in Koreatown...) like i said before this theory is still in the testing stages...

New Home

Well, today is the day... i've finished moving into my new apartment =) we're far from having the place fulled furnished, but this place is starting to look like a home... today i cooked my first dinner in the kitchen.. unfortunately, we were missing two roomies for dinner... bulgogi is the best! esp. when you cook it yourself... at the present moment i'm sitting in the living room watching a very tiny television with my roomie david, mayrin, and sonnier all on the couch behind me... david and mayrin will be going to the bay area tonight so this weekend I'll get the place all to myself with jasmine in LA... it really hasn't hit me yet that i'll be staying here for the rest of the year perhaps i'm running on my giddy fumes... =) okie.. i'm outtie...

Back home...

the events of today have been pretty much a blur... i mean just a couple of hours ago i was driving in my car down to Chinatown and now i'm back home in san diego with all my summer memories packed up in my car. (which has still yet to be upacked) =P`... during the day all i could think about was the fact i may never get a chance to see some of these people ever again... what compounded the feeling more was the fact that this will be my last summer in LA... it was surreal to walk down my familiar 3rd floor and remove all the decorations and signs... while i was signing some papers and turning in my key i felt as if i was going to cry right then and there.. *sigh* i'm such a sentimental... i've had so many great memories of the summer and countless adventures to recount so i won't even try... as soon as i can get my hands on my new computer I'll post up all my digital video for you all to enjoy =) to all those people who made my summer great i raise a glass to you =) and here's to... asian snacks, movie making, soapy fountains, find the SRA, glowsticks, RA Love, smoking tips, big fat stupid american, "shotgun!", YS socials, pornstar parking, instigating, the super bed, disneyland, bulgogi, noodle planet, "herro?!?", the chipmunks, henna tattoos, white tiger feet, pajama jam, the traitor, kiddie pool twister, woodchuck song, asian music appreciation, "oh man", "fabulous", and Fat Boy Slim Praise You...

lastly, much thanks to SES, sam and ted, you guys are my boys! it's seriously hard for me to put into words the kind of impact you made on my summer... honestly, if you two aren't planning to come back next year John Hopkins can cross me off the list too... wow, where do i begin to describe the summer we've had together?!? i think our friendship began that one day we went off to noodle planet to have lunch... nothing cements friendships better than food... *bulgogi, pad thai, curry, sushi, unagi, boba, ice cream, and dim sum* speaking of which i give mad props to you two for always spotting me when i was a poor bulgogi slut =) in addition to all the great food i'm going to remember smoking tips on out on the stairs and having puzzle fighter tournaments in my room... and of course all the nightly rounds around doheny... Ted aka. The Mean RA... damn you really had the spectrum of kids this summer... you started off with the worst kids in CTY and ended up loving them and then got little angels and you hated to be with them... hahaha =) make up your mind! i could always count on you as a weapon against my rowdiest kids and in trench you were a force not to be messed with... i'll definitely come to visit you whether yer in taiwan or at school... Sam aka. Samsung... together we've stolen from the rich and given to ourselves! =) i hope you put those dance moves i taught you to good use and be sure to throw some extra meat on your teppanyaki for me... i'll call you on my cool cordless phone in the near future... thanks for all the asian snacks and be sure to send my thanks to your family who i think are just the coolest family i've ever met.... bulgogi runs will never be the same without you... and if there is ever a next time around we're going to steal that "open trench" sign...

2nd Session Social

First off.. let me explain the premise of a social... for younger students who may be too intimidated to attend a "dance" the younger student staff uses the word social in its place... we basically show a movie and have games for the shy kiddies and we DJ a dance for the rest of them... tonight's social, Pajama Jam, was a great success due in part to the use of glowsticks by the kids... i really think the glowsticks helped the kids get over the barrier or dancing in front of their peers... anywho, i'm tired and hungry which means it's time for a bulgogi run with my boys =)..

Session 2, Day 5

Hi people! I apologize for not being able to update my blogs as often as i like but I've been very busy... we just got a new set of students for the second session of this camp... i truly and honest to god miss my old kids! it's kinda funny cuz i really couldn't stand them but not having the same old faces to look at made me sad... my new kids in comparison are actually very well behaved with the exception of two little bastards, but i still miss my old hall with all their imperfections...

aside from the kids i've made some pretty good friends with the people i'm working with... thanks god they've actually hired some asian people this time around... it's weird because the program has mostly white and asian kids in their classes, but last year there were only a handful of asian staff members... this time around i'm not the token asian staff member which is great... i've become pretty good friends with two other young student male RA's who are definitely making my summer lots of fun... although i hate to admit it we've become pretty clichish in our group... in fact we've named ourselves S.E.S. (korean music fans will be able to relate) and we make bulgogi runs on a nightly basis. Ted is a second year at Duke University but he's originally from Taiwan and Sam is a third year at Amhurst College. this past 4 weeks we've all gotten pretty close and it's sad to think in only 2 weeks we'll be going our separate ways... i'll post up the sticker pics as soon as i get back home and get a good computer which will hopefully be soon... today we made a trip to Santa Monica Pier where Ted decided to get a Henna Tatto.. it didn't turn out too well so i guess we're going back tomorrow to make the lady redo it for him... i'm deciding whether or not to get a cartilage piercing while i'm here in LA or a tat on my back... hmm...

anywho, yesterday SES went to the movies where ted had the bright idea to watch legally blonde.. although entertaining the movie wasn't oscar material... so now ted owes me and sam a movie next night out... jurassic park 3 here we come! =)

Day Off

Tomorrow is my first day off of the session and i'm pretty excited... i told my kids today that i was going to have a day off tomorrow and they all let out a little "awwww" when i told them. =) it's really good to know that your kids really like you and not just your tv... anywho, the plans are to go to magic mtn with ian and just have a day of fun.

my plans for working out everyday seem to be fading away fast... the only active stuff i've been doing thus far has been playing dodge ball, swimming, and dancing every friday night... so much for turning myself into a gymnatist over summer vacation... =P` oh yeah, on top of that i've developed an addiction to bulgogi... i think just about very night off i've been to Hodori, a 24 hour korean resteraunt, in Korea Town... i surprised they haven't dedicated a table to me yet... hahahha.... so yeah, i've been dubbed the bulgogi slut since the past two times we've been out i haven't had any money to pay for my food... don't worry though, it should be all good as long as i pay back the ppl that paid for my dinner... okie, i'm outtie.. me and ian are goig to kick it tonight an play some playstation and enjoy our day off! woo hoo!

Damn it's hot...

Well, the kids are finally asleep and i can sit down and collect thoughts.... the weather gods here is LA must be mad or something cuz they've just been giving us the most shitty weather possible.... it's hot and humid under a blanket of smog and cloud cover... not good weather for enjoying the summer... =P`... i just took a shower and already i feel sticky which means i'll be taking another shower before bedtime... ohhh... and just now i heard the clap of thunder.. looks like they'll be rain coming tonight...

today as an activity for the kids we're having them make their own movies... one of which is turning out to be really funny... my group of kids wants to make a movie about the Croc Hunter with a parody of the matrix and blair witch project all rolled into one... definitely something to watch when i come back home... anywho, last night me and some of the other RAs went to go watch A.I. articificial intelligence... let me just say the film is awesome... although i disapprove of the ending and the how long the movie was it was a very thought provoking movie which is what i loved about it... it's pretty funny how these kids are fascinated with the aspects of my social life... as i was leaving for the movies my kids spied on my from their rooms and somehow came to the conclusion i was on a double date with 2 of the female RAs working with me... in fact, today my kids said they were going to blackmail me with the "secret information" they had on me... i'm still on the fence about whether i like my kids or not...

in other news me and ian went to downtown LA to get some business finished with my CalVet college waiver stuff... we went to the franchise tax board office in this really big government building located in the heart of downtown... when me and ian got out of the elevator the heat of about 50 in line hit us... it was just a madhouse up in that mug! seriously, all those ppl stank... or at the least enough ppl were stank to make the whole damn place stank... so anyway, i made the executive decision to not wait in line and just explore downtown with ian... we didn't get to travel very far since we were sidetracked into the nearest McDonalds... however, i know me and ian will be hitting up downtown again to see what kind of bargains we can find on the streets... walking around for the short time we were there i noticed that downtown LA is so very different from the downtown in San Diego... besides the sheer size of the metropolis the whole dynamic of the city is very different... it's hard to explain but trust me the vibe is different...

Fun in the Sun

well, it's been a week since the kids have arrived and i'm dead beat tired... the RAs calculated we've spent a total of 60 hours straight with our kids this weekend... let me tell you, as much as i love my kids, this weekend was looooong... and let me tell you i'm glad that they'll be going back to class tomorrow. =) good news though, i'll be going with my class on their field trip to the LA museum of modern science and IMAX theater so it should be a fun day when we go...

the weather gods seem to be angry with us RAs because as soon as the kids left for study hall clouds and chilly winds came to LA... it was just in time to bring gray cover over the little pool party we had planned for... fun crew never lets gloomy weather get in the way of fun so we swam nevertheless and the water was quite refreshing.... tomorrow the plans are drive to downtown LA and find the california tax board office and get m tax return print out for my CALVet stuff... i think the sun has drained me of my energy to write creatively... anywho, check back often i should have some interesting happenings from my adventures in LA...

Still in Los Angeles

sorry about the really shitty blog last time... i was a bit tired and short on imagination... anywho, i'm back to normal... somewhat. this year i don't seem to have the same energy i had for my kids that i did back last year... i'm constantly tired now and i i honestly don't look forward to seeing my kids after they come back from classes... i think they should just pay me to kick it with all the RAs which is definitly the best part of this experience... well, i failed to mention a couple of things in my last blog so i'll try to cover them in this one since i don't know when i'll update this thing again...

well, during our orientation period a male RA position opened up so i decided to bring up ian's name since he lives in LA anyways... anyways, i'm sure you've guess what i was about to say anyway which is Ian was hired! =) he actually works with the older students so i don't see him that often although me and him are working on this weekend's casino night... i'm sure you want to hear all the stories i have about my new kids and definitely i do have stories to tell... let me start off with the kids who i think are so cool that if i could i would shrink them and take them bake home with me... there's this one little chinese boy from england who has the just about the most cute accent i've heard on a kid... it's hard to convey his cuteness factor into words but trust me, if they made a little action figure of this boy it would be the next tickle me elmo... in terms of my past kids it's really weird to see how they've all grown bigger... it's pretty cool though to be able to talk to my former kids and see how their year was and to see how i compare as an RA... hahahaha...

apsa dance routine mafia hits los angeles! i've begun to train a new army of dancers for the summer... for a weekly activity me and my friend sarah have taken upon ourselves to teach hip hop dance to these kids... although not quite up to 220 material they're getting there...

anywho, today was mandatory fun day for the young student RA's... we spent the day at the beach relaxing and talking about how much we can't stand our kids... =P`... dude, these kids have just sucked the creativity out of me... this blog is pretty shitty... no detail or anything really interesting... well... my day off is coming up on the 9th and the plans thus far are to sleep in and hit up magic mtn with ian and hopefully anyone else who would be interested... the weather here in La has been pretty strange either it's super hot or cool and chilly... decide already mother nature! being out in the sun isn't good for my skin either... the farmer's tan i got last summer was slowly fading away but now has come back with a vengene ever since the southern california sun got a hold of me... damnit! anywho, i'm tired, sticky, and need my nap cuz i'm getting cranky... until next time... matta!

Los Angeles

well, i arrived in los angeles on thursday and my trusted celica was filled to the brim with all my junk. (ie. computer, tv, vcr, clothes, etc etc) i'm really quite surprised it all fit. the first couple of days i really didn't spend much time getting to know the new young student male RAs which i felt sorta guilty for, but no biggie... we're now all friends =) tunday the students arrived and surprisingly all the students on my hall make up the whole classroom. that poor instructor, she's left with 15 very rowdy boys. luckily my kids aren't all that bad in fact they are all pretty well behaved. however, i'm debating whether or not my choice of wanting children is such a good one... i see how the bads ones can turn out...it's like having 15 big babies.. puahahaha jk.
aside from the children... the people i'm working with are awesome, basically everyone is new except for a few old returners who are looked upon with great diginity and wisdom...=) today the male RAs went down to westwood to do some lunch time bonding over lunch at noodle planet... we didn't get to make a side trip to dede reese because we were sidetracked by boba which wasn't as good as the stuff from green tea house... currently the phones on my hall are all broke and my key still doesn't open the front door to my building which was gotten to be a real bitch... anywho, i'll update you all on my adventures in LA as soon as i find some more free time... i think i've left my hall unattended long enough....

The End of an Era

As you can tell from my past recent blogs the general theme of them has something do to with the closing of the school year and beginning of summer break. In following with the general theme of things we come to the packing up and moving out of a year's worth of memories. Well, tonight marked the last night Fun Crew (minus one) will ever spend in International Gardens. Granted when i was saying my goodbyes the significance of tonight really didn't hit me until now. Thinking back, i'm seriously going to miss the place I called "home". Undoubtedly the downstairs neighbors won't give it a second thought that their noisy upstairs neighbors will be finding another place to reside this coming fall or that they mysteriously gained two male roommates half way during the year. i'm going to miss being able to come home and take a nap after a long day of classes while watching tv with my partner in crime. Who can forget the countless late night/early morning sessions of just pure fun crew quality time. You should never underestimate the fun that can occur from 4 college students who don't want to be studying. Although the place lacked a living room we definitely "broke in" both Mayrin's and Steph's room. We added our own signatures to the place with pictures, socks n' underwear, forgetten items, and bags of McDonalds. In all the nights of fun and craziness we've had in that apt i don't think we've ever had drinks together at home which goes to show we can have our own fun without alcohol... Even though it was a bitch driving over all those speed bumps to get to home, it was nice to be able to have a parking spot to call my own. good old spaces #1 and #2 =)

here's to... afternoon naps*late night boba runs*analysis of dawson's creek*passions in the afternoon*apt basketball*high speed internet*weakest link*the daily routine (coming in, taking off shoes, putting stuff on desk, using the bathroom, crashing on the bed)*fun boys to bitch boys*printing schedules for the vp's*spring break planning*talking till 5 in the morning*timely farts*sleeping with a lawn mower*having the apt to myself*fun crew quality time*quality family time*LPCing it*speaking Mayrinese*3 flights of stairs*opening cotton fruit*washing cars*composing destiny's child road trip song*grad banquet meetings*reliving our teenage years with fresh prince and saved by the bell*bitching about school work*mayrin's tan and tatt*wall o' philip*mommy, daddy, big sis, and baby*messing with AIM*jumping on the bed*waking up neighbors*fire alarms while dying hair*and smiling just becuase i'm with you guys*

it still never ceases to amaze me that in such a short period of time people can get so close to each other... when friends can read you to the point where they know what you're going to do even before you do it that's something special... and maybe it's because we spend so much damn time together, but to be honest I never get tried of coming home... although at times i feel that i shouldn't go or that i'm not in the mood...but once i'm there it tears me apart to leave...

okie okie, i think i've saturated you all with enough romantizism of Mayrin and Steph's apartment... just wanted to conclude this by saying it's not so much the place that made it special but the people in it... =) next time i'll be reporting to you all from LA!

And then there were none...

I'm done with finals! Woo hoo! I finished my last ochem exam ever yesterday morning at 8. It still hasn't hit me though that summer is upon me and i can finally relax, in fact when i went back to mayrin's for a nap i was still feeling a bit stressed. It's about 4 in the morning and i can't decide whether or not to sleep or just stay up for the hell of it.

my summer movie project is slowly coming back together... yeah i know, i was supposed to film itlast summer, but things just didn't work out and more or less there were scripting problems from the beginning. i was inspired by a short 2 minute movie i watched on asianamericanfilm.com... instead of a 30 minute piece i've decided to think small and do a shorter 5 minute movie on mah-jongg which has consumed as much of my life as fun crew has. hopefully when i return from LA i'll have a script and storyboard drawn up. definitely some very exciting things to look forward to in the summer. in addition to the myriad of summer movies to hit the screens this summer you all can look forward to my short film that'll be posted on the web at least before school gets back. =)